STRONGER: Ashleigh Korneiliussen was only seven and a half weeks pregnant with son Ashton, when her partner Casey took his own life.
STRONGER: Ashleigh Korneiliussen was only seven and a half weeks pregnant with son Ashton, when her partner Casey took his own life. Facebook

'My son saved me from the grief of losing his daddy'

HIS daddy will never teach him to play the guitar he shares a namesake with, but little Ashton will grow up knowing his birth was the one thing that got his mum through losing the person she loved most in the world.

Ashleigh Korneliussen, 17, and Casey Holloway, 18, were over the moon to find out they were going to be parents.

But a few short weeks later, when Ashleigh was just 7.5 weeks pregnant, Casey took his own life, devastating his girlfriend, family and friends from Mackay and his hometown of Collinsville.

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But the young mum kept strong for the little boy growing inside her.

And, as it turned out, he was doing the exact same thing.

"Because of all the stress I went through, I was really worried there would be complications but everything went smoothly, my pregnancy, my labour, everything was really good," Ashleigh said.

 

Ashleigh Korneiliussen was only seven and a half weeks pregnant with son Ashton, when her partner Casey took his own life.
Ashleigh Korneiliussen was only seven and a half weeks pregnant with son Ashton, when her partner Casey took his own life. Facebook

The next seven months - a time she and Casey should have spent picking out nursery furniture and baby names together - was a time of heartache.

"My son is the best thing to ever happen to me," Ashleigh said. "He saved me before he even saw the world."

The now-18-year-old mum says losing Casey so tragically made her determined to turn her own life around, which was once tarred with depression.

"(Losing Casey) has made me stronger. Before he passed away I was a lot more childish, I didn't see the world how I see it now," she said.

"Living is a lot more special now than what it was before. Something like that happening, you grow up very quickly.

"(I've learned) to not let things get to you, because a lot of people around you care."

 

She said when Casey died, he "had no idea how many people cared about him".

"I used to be a very depressed person (too). I used to think about doing silly things to myself all the time ... but ever since it happened to Casey, I can never look back -- I'm too scared to pass away now, I know how much it hurts the people around you."

Ashton Jackson Casey Korneliussen came into the world on August 30, 2017 - one week before Father's Day.

 

Ashleigh Korneiliussen gave birth to son Ashton on August 30, 2017.
Ashleigh Korneiliussen gave birth to son Ashton on August 30, 2017. Facebook

"Casey picked the name when I fell pregnant because he had a love for guitars, so it's a brand called Ashton which he played all the time," Ashleigh said.

When she doesn't have a five-month-old crawling around her feet, the stay-at-home mum spends her days creating YouTube videos, with her make-up tutorials and motherhood journey racking up thousands of views.

"I like keeping busy, and staying positive," she said.

Ashleigh Korneiliussen was only seven and a half weeks pregnant with son Ashton, when her partner Casey took his own life.
Ashleigh Korneiliussen was only seven and a half weeks pregnant with son Ashton, when her partner Casey took his own life. Facebook

When the time comes to tell Ashton about his father, Ashleigh said she had to be careful with how she talked about him.

"I'm going to tell Ashton what sort of person he was, and he was an amazing person," she said.

"But I'm going to have to tell him he was sick; I don't really want to tell him exactly what happened, because I don't want him to grow up thinking that's the right thing to do."

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