THE troubled musings Allison Baden-Clay penned in the pages of a journal reflect a woman wrestling with her husband's betrayal.
She makes note of how hurt she was that her husband of almost 15 years Gerard had an affair with Toni McHugh and pondered whether the woman ever felt bad sleeping with a married man.
Still ruminating on something uncovered more than six months prior, Allison wonders whether she is a prude and whether her husband regretted his actions or simply that he was caught out.
She questions why her husband was "so mean" after she found out, making notes about him laughing at her undies and saying she smelled.
The mother of three says she finds the "whole thing dirty" and still feels "sick in stomach".
The notes were found in Allison's journal, which police found under a bedside table in the main bedroom.
They are marked as questions or conversation points she wanted to ask him.
The date April 18, 2012 - the day before her husband is accused of murdering her - is written at the top of the page.
Brisbane Supreme Court has heard the Baden-Clays had been seeing a marriage counsellor who suggested the couple spend 15 minutes each night for Allison to vent issues about the affair while Gerard listened in silence.
"Did she ever say 'I feel bad because you're married'?" she wrote
"Really hurt - had so many opportunities to tell me - let me believe it was all my fault and therefore I was at your mercy - Peter said ball in your court.
"Forced me to look to you - think that's where you wanted me.
"Do you regret the whole thing or just being court (sic)?
"Were you prepared to live with the guilt if I hadn't found out?"
There was a hand-drawn map depicting the layout of Ms McHugh's home on one of the pages.
The Crown has now closed its case.
It has not been revealed whether the defence will call evidence.
Gerard Baden-Clay's phone plugged in night Allison vanished
PHONE log records show Gerard Baden-Clay's phone was plugged in to be charged five hours before he reported his wife missing.
He has always maintained he went to bed feeling sick at 10pm on April 19, 2012, and woke just after 6am on April 20.
But his phone records show his phone was placed on charge at 1.48am on April 20 and removed from charging at 6.18am.
He has repeatedly told police he was a heavy sleeper and was not sure whether his wife Allison slept in the bed next to him.
Mr Baden-Clay, who had huge financial issues, phoned Asteron Life Insurance on May 1, 2012, the day after Allison's body was found to ask how to make a claim.
His wife had rung to reduce the sum insured and the premium on their life insurance policies for herself and her husband two days before she was allegedly murdered.
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